Guess its time for another post today. This week has been a rollercoaster. Still dealing with being alone and still dealing with wishing I had someone to talk to, bounce ideas off of, and most of all someone to share my goals and accomplishments with. For now I will just be content that the week is almost over and I am happy!I do feel highly motivated because in addition to feeling amazing I have some New Years plans that I am REAL excited about. I get to go see a Reeeeeally good friend of mine in Utah and spend New Years dancing!! We have plans to go get some new clothes and just have some quality girls time together. I havnt seen her in a while and am hoping to lose another 40 pounds by the time I go. When she see's me my total weigh loss should be close to 75 pounds since she saw me last!!!Thats exciting!!
This week I started planning my meals and although my weight loss was just a couple pounds I am happy that I am rolling forward and not back. Three days of concentrated effort yeilded a couple of pounds, SO this week I am gonna pull a HUGE number. I have decided that I am going to pull such a big number my weight loss competitors will gasp in disbelief, (because I am dramatic like that.)haha. Oh the things I make up. Anyway joking aside I have decided that I do not control the scale and really what I eat and do does not always show on the scale, and I am ok with that. I feel real good. To me that is all that matters. Thats all that should matter, you do your best and you just say "that was my best and its good enough." Thats a good lesson to apply to life. Sure there are always things that I would like to be more perfect, mainly my house, but working full time, rasing two kids alone and keeping up with education, spirituality and my mental well being makes it impossible to be perfect in that area. I posted a couple of days ago on facebook about HOW to keep it all together. I guess I never imagined that the role that I have now would be so hard. The good part is this time around I have a great job so financially I dont have to worry as much as I did before. I also realized that noone keeps it together all the time. Guess thats because we are all human. We have to just deal with the fact that we are not perfect, and you know what I LOVE people who can admit that. I really love real people. People who talk about struggling, people who laugh about it even. Nothing makes me happier than swapping stories about the imprefections of life. After all we all have something that we can laugh at!
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