New Year

I have been thinking about my life a lot over the last few days as I have been in Utah with my sister and also a dear friend of mine. I have thought a lot about the kind of person I want to be. Although I know that things will never be perfect in this life I still want to do my best to be who I need to be...according to Gods measurement.
Not that I am resigning myself to anything BUT I am making tenative plans for my life as a single person. Anyone who knows me, knows that my greatest desire is to raise a family...I would love the luxury of having a husband, and more children and be able to be at home full time with them. I do not have this luxury, but what I do have is an oppurtunity to raise two wonderful children. They are a blessing to me and I have really enjoyed them this past year. They have taught me so much about life, love and humor.
My goal for my life is to leave a positive mark on their lives and help them learn to rely on the Lord and be aware of the blessings that he provides them. There are so many things that I want to do in my life and I am ready to get started doing what I need to do to get there.
One of my greatest struggles has been with my weight. This past year I lost about 50 pounds (I wont dwell on the fact I gained like 8 over the holidays) The important thing is to just keep moving forward. I will not dwell on the bumps in the road I will just set my coarse and look forward to the goal.
I have learned that I need to set a long term goal and then break it down to smaller goals so that I do not get overwealmed. This quarters goal is to look good in my dress for my birthday. I will spare myself the humiliation of modeling the before for you but lets just say it fits but looks aweful. No amount of sucking and tucking can conceal the horror. My goal is to do the daily things that will bring long term change and results for me. I want to lose 40 pounds by my birthday which is mid April. I know I can do this. But just one day at a time.
My kids and I are doing a consistancy challenge with our food and with our working outs.
I will be logging my proccess along the way...hopefully more faithfully. I am going to be real as usual so excuse my thoughts and hopefully you will enjoy my journey with me.
This year I WILL lose 100 pounds. Next year by my birthday I will be to my goal weight. Just in time for my 39th birthday...that year I will do the seattle to portland bikd ride.