35 POUNDS DOWN!!

Today was a much needed victory!! I hit 35 pounds lost today. This marks a HUGE accomplishment for me. I was reflecting on the past three months and they were quite frankly THE hardest twelve weeks of my life personally...not because of the weight loss. Almost exactly one month ago my husband moved out of the house, never to return. I am so happy that I was blessed with being able to do the Triathlon the following week because I REALLY needed to do it. The week after that was probably the hardest week since he left. The tri was over and I had no HUGE goal to meet anymore, my back started to hurt real bad, and emotionally I was drained.It all caught up with me that week. I actually wanted to crawl in a hole and just never come out. I felt like a failure. Sad that I could not keep things together....but realized that no matter what I could have done, it would not have changed the way things ended.I had to accept the way things really were. I decided that no matter what happened emotionally or otherwise in my life I needed to be true to my goal to be healthy. I am so happy that during this time of horrible grief I was able to stay strong and keep rolling in the right direction...and lose 20 pounds in that 12 weeks.(as of this morning) I have amazing friends who have been so supportive of my goals and never let me give up the dream! I have now lost OVER 10% of my weight with the 35 pounds!!!

I look forward to my next goal! The next 10% goal will be 30 pounds. I will be there by Thanksgiving for sure but hoping for October 24th.That is the date my divorce will be final and it would be amazing to hit another milestone on a day that I will not celebrate...It will be the end of what I had hoped would be a marriage that would last into the eternities.

I still have hope that I will love and be loved again. I have to have that hope.