Struggling

So this week I decided that I am going to get back on my advocare products. I used them a couple years ago to lose about 50 pounds and I did really well. There are a lot of new products and I am a little confused as to what is the best and when to use it all. Right now I am weeding through all the nutritional info in my head and trying to decide where to find a balance. I have been doing OK eating wise but nothing that is anything worthy of report. I struggle.
This week I went shopping and filled my fridge with good foods and healthy snacks and that has helped, I felt blessed to be able to afford those delicious foods.
Depression is getting ahold of me today as it does at certain times and I am working hard to push the doubt and the discouragement out of my head, because I know exactly where it comes from and its not from God.
I need some consistancy and I need someone good to work out with who wont let me wimp out and who wants this as bad as I do. I need a training partner. Real bad.
I am going to a advocare meeting this thursday in Cdlane idaho and I am pretty excited about it. I am still at the beginning part of this and need to place an order to get started. I was only able to do 7 days of the cleanse because I only had that much left from the many times I started and stopped so I really feel like I need to start all over and just do it again. Its pretty natural so its gentle enough you can keep doing it. My friend who has lost about 80 pounds does the 24 day challange over and over each month. I want to do that.
I am going to visit the gym again tomorrow because working out at home has too many distractions for me. But that means I have to get up earlier than before so I can be done in time to help out with the kids, but I need this. This is for me.